Affection
Gelitain Silver Print. 11x14
I had just recently come away from a relationship where my trust was greatly violated and I was having a hard time trusting woman again. I was tired of being misunderstood. I need communication, understanding, and honesty with the woman I am in a relationship with. I later fell in love with an incredibly beautiful and vibrant girl in college. She was everything I ever wanted in a woman. Because of this girl’s past, however, she needed constant outward physical reassurance of my love for her such as holding hands and kissing. I felt the kind of affection she wanted and was used to was the unhealthy kind. I see immature relationships were guys are extra affectionate and sweet to a girl and then treat them like crap especially when they are not around. I don’t like it when I see guys give girls insincere affection so that they can control a girl. It is fake and for the sole purpose of making the girl think that they are a great guy when in fact they are manipulating the girl into doing what they want.
I treat people as my equals. I don’t feel woman have their place or that they need to be beneath me because they are fragile and week. I never wanted to treat her that way but it seems that was how she was used to being treated by others in the past and that is what she learned was appropriate. Being a private person with this subject and not comfortable with public display of affection didn’t help the situation even though this woman made me want to break that comfort zone.
I incorrectly thought that if I didn’t feed her need and showed my love in other ways that I would somehow get her to address the real problem. I wanted to help her to love herself without the need to have me make her happy. There is more to a relationship then just having a good time and showing affection. Just because a couple holds hands does not mean they love each other or are great for each other.
